fucker.

you're standing just a lil too close to me.

we both lead separate lifes. we both have separate lovers. then we do we still bother to get back for a night fling again?
we blog bout different people. and we dedicate our lifes to other people. then please tell me why we still bother to get back for that one fling.

i'm ready to put you back in my life. i'm ready to make you number one. i'm ready to push everyone, everything aside for you. but i doubt you would be willingly to do that aye?

why do you always come back and spoil my life. it was a balance already. why do you have to make me feel so strongly for you again. WHY?!

Sit on the bed alone, staring at the phone.
she wasn't what I wanted, what I thought, no.
she wouldn't even open up the door.
she never made me feel like I was special.

alvina
someone un-spoil my life PLEASE.

hmms. my dear prince charming! i miss you laa. poo.

yesterday was a stupid dear. got f-ed 2 times from the stupid woman that she wanted to kick me out of tangs! DAMN HER! poo. we're only HUMAN. we are imperfect laa. so what's her probleemm! poo.

saw my darling callix in da morning. wheee! i miss you. you got a darn nice phone i tell you. am so jealous laa. POO!

got work tmr. AGAIN. what the fuck laa. am so not in the mood to work! roarr..

alvina.
you moved on. you treated me as a toyy again. i wanted you so badly but this is what i got again. i'm gonna forget you. i'm gonna forget us.

AHHHH. its been long mans.
i'm posted to nowhere! sigh. its that bad laa. oh wells. now i have to rethink bout all my career choices and i'm being pushed to being a nurse. the prospects of being a nurse are great! compared to just holing a dip in hospitality and tourism. hmms. oh wells. i may not get accepted into these two courses anyway. ITE here i come!! heh.

how pathetic can i get.

work's getting more and more fun laa. i cant believe i'm leaving in less than a week. why do good things always come to an end? sigh.

i need a TAN. i really really NEED a tan laa. i feel so fair. poo.

i think i just met my prince charming. no really. CALLIXTA! you have to meet him laa. :))

to uncle. you cant keep me waiting forever. i dont even know how you feel for me. how am i still gonna contiune my feelings for you...

alvina. :))

TO ALL SHOPPERS: PLEASE HAVE A HEART. WHENEVER A STORE'S CLOSING PLEASE GO! WE PROMOTERS HAVE TO GO HOME TOO. AINT THAT FREE TO FOREVER BE STANDING AT OUR COUNTERS TO SERVE YOU. THANK YOU.

ha. ok felt really pissed with a customer yesterday. it was like 8.20 already and she insisted on a watch. she so couldnt make up her mind laa! kaos. had to stand there like an idiot while she was slowing browsing the watches. POO! felt so so stupid laa.
but yesterday was funny laa. everyday with rongbiao's funny laa! heh. hhe just totally rocks laa. but he's so CRUDE!
gary! my sweetheart! heh. you are so missed by me. but heh you so will never get to see this.
so there are still good guys out there.. hmms! heh.

anybody wants coco trees vouchers? they're only 10 dollars!! heh. contact me please! :))

posting result's coming out on er tuesday. which is TOMORROW! ah. what if i dont get into my course or something?! i'm so stuupidd laa. should have just when for the dae. POO! oh wells. we'll see tmr.

alvina.
missed by none.
and JOANNA NG! PATRICK IS MINE!!!

heh!

yesterday was great laa.
i'm missing you already. poo.

pattrrick is MINE!!!!!!!!! alvina.

stuPID.

heh! why ?! BUDGET?! WHY?! now can spend must spend le. heh ok laa. i just really enjoy shopping. :))
sponge bob's mostly dry humor. dont you agree? heh. oh wells. but its so kiddish that it transform the reality that you're on laa. like dreamland you know. and yes did i mention i'm in love with patrricck! heh. :))

UNCLE! i'm so so SORRY for making you er choke on your tongue stud laa. heh. i'll get you like five next time and force it all down your throat too or something laa! heh. i feel evil. UNCLE! when the hell are you gonna call. kaos. i hate waiting laa. you're an idiot laa.

rongbiao! i love yyou laa. you are so never gonna read this but i still am gonna type so that the rest of the world knows i love youu! he's darn stupid laa but never fails to cheer me up with his bloody LAME jokes and crude-ness laa. heh. he's forever cracking jokes bout signs on the streets laa. like who flys non-stop to new york!? heh. ah. thanks so much for always protecting me and tolerating my tempers la. you rock la. ;))

pay day's in EIGHT days. heh so can shopp soon.

i'm so bored. entertainment please.

damn. i smell her again. ok this is getting out of hand.

suffy! my new working partner. heh you rock laa.

alvina.

patrricckkk...

lol xue! that's why i say we need a shopping trip laa! heh heh. dancing how!? what's happening?! nothing la. everything's over le. darn disappointed with the way things turned out laa.. but hey! its the past! no use raking stuff up aye?! :))

just finished my SPONGEBOB movie! its so stupid ok! heh. i LOVE patrick laa! but he loves mindy. sigh. and gary's so CUTE! mao! heh heh. oh mans. i'm feeling kiddish again laa.. went watching with my bro and ben dan+friends. heh heh. she stinks la. like really! poo. next time PLEASE. dont smoke then come meet me ok? :)) heh heh.

i shopped today! and bought my stuff. still got like one last thing to buy laa. but that will so have to wait. poo!

loves. misses. ben dan.

alvina.

going.

heh heh. i think henna's really REALLY cool! :)) just did it at bugis yesterday. the lady's really cool ok. went shopping AGAIN! ha. so totally broke la. cant wait for the 26th to come. poo. heh heh and we bought a fortune telling fish!! its so cute laa! and i bought my orange bags! heh!! :)) its so ORANGE!!! ah. dont get me going on! poo.

hmms. just finished reading her blog. she moved on pretty fast aye? oh wells. its so unpredictable. i thought we were gonna make it. i thought we were gonna be the best thing ever but nah.. i wonder what really like when wrong. hmms. we were THIS close. sigh. ok maybe like all along it was a one sided thing laa. poo. oh wells! it OVER!!!

SPONGEBOB SQUARE PANTS! here i come! heh. ok i feel really childish but i really wanna watch that movie la!! heh i think i'm falling in love with patrick laa! oh dear! :))

alvina-
who really misses.

should me?

why are all my entries bout work!? hmms. i so wanna eat ice cream laa! and i really cant wait for this month's pay! its gonna be er quite a lot laa! that means SHOPPING!! heh heh.
i LOVE shopping.
i ADORE shopping.
like who wouldnt laa! heh

ben dan. you're attached. you liar pok. misses.

alvina.

this is so stupid ok. why do you think people come HOME from work?! to get away from work right!? then why the fuck did YOU have to call me and tell me a watch's missing!? stupid la. and you have to go report to EVERYBODY> fuck la. i'll take the responsiblilty la. you dont have to pay anything so please!! dont panic la. just let it be and chill mans! asshole.

oh i forgot to say
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOANNE HO!
heh. sorry. forgot aye!

day was ok la.. was practically slacking all about. who cares mans. stupid. still feeling so pissed bout the whole matter.

hmms. i think i have to do something bout my nails! lol.

alvina.

shagged.

work was actually quite pleasant yesterday! heh! sales was good. so was commission! :)) my new girl came yesterday. she did quite well for a first-day person! oh wells. i wonder when's my off la. i'm so shagged already! poo. cant wait for spongebob to come out ! heh. will be a good sister and bring my lil brother to watch it! :))

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RUTH YEOW! :))

alvina.

almostt.

I almost forgot to say something else
And if I cant fit it in I’ll keep it all to myself
I almost wrote a song about you today
But I tore it all open and I threw it away
And I almost had you
But I guess that doesn’t cut it
Almost had you And I didn’t even know it
You kept me guessing and now I guess that
I spent my time missing you
And I almost had you
I almost wish you would’ve loved me too

heh. to you.

i give up on the tag laaa! i'm html BLIND. there. i admit laa!

fry me.

ok i'm feeling a lil pissed now. had a really ridiculous customer just now. POO! like HELLO! i'm only human. she got the watch and started lashing out at me! bout the watch that is. i mean like i WORK at guess ONLY. its not like i'm the really big manager?! if you want to make suggestions you can proceed down to our head office la! oh mans. she was really silly. i think she thought i was stupid or something and started using like really big words?! ha! i spoke back at her with really big words too. she's so..ARGH! that's what you call a complain queen ok! she complained bout EVERy possible thing mans! haha. but after she left we were bitching bout the way she spoke.. so it was reallly funny la! heh. oh wells. actually, she kinda just woke me up la. you know what i'm saying. she's that kind of customer that brightens up my day. but in a bad way la. but hey! its was actually fun just quarrelling with her la. and her stupid husband standing there comtemplating what to do! ha! oh wells. ok. now i think i aint that pissed anymore! POO!

why didnt you come down? i so wanted to see you la. when you said you were coming down. do you know how happy i was?! poo!

today sales was good. good sales = good commission! heh! but overall. except for that customer, everything was BORING! it was quite packed at tangs la. cant wait to see how tmr goes. :))
JOANNE! find me tmr ah. -stares.

i miss you. yes YOU.

alvina!

you?

ah! new diary/blog whatever. ha. dont you think the templete's so CUTE?! when i put my lips like this i want you to kiss me. heh heh. how LAME aye?! tsk! ok. i need to prove to a certain person that i love her. any ideas? anyone? haha. come come let me tell you all a story.. :))
we met on friendster. i added her as my friend and she msged me asking who i was. poo. we continued and ended up exchanging contacts. heh heh. we started msging and her msg never fails to put a smile on my face. we crapped a lot and wells. i soon became her fairy and she became my wizard. we lived in our own magical world but at that point of time, she had her gf and i had mine. sadd aye. in a way. we both wanted to break up with out other-halves..but maybe we just didnt have the courage to do it or something..
we used to have those late night conversations...heh heh remember? i'm really sure she would read this. its just a matter of time. and wells, she was always there for me. ALWAYS. whenever i quarrelled with mine gf she was always there to share my pain. poo.
remember the first time we met? ha. i found you cute and you said my fringe was FUGLY. heh. mean girls? white chicks! i'm so freakin pissed! remember?! hahah. yes. and ha. we met up quite often after that didntt we. heh. you werent happy cause i was still with my gf. but nevertheless you still love me..right? ha.
after the o's. i went away on a holiday came back and made up my mind. she was the one i wanted. still remember prom night? our walk to ps. in heels? and my ugly hair..hmms! it was then that we started getting serious..didnt we? :)) all the hugs and kisses. haha. wheee! you totally put me on cloud nine!!
but ya.. happiness was short-lived ya? school started and so did hockey. you were too busy for me. even though i had work we started drifting from then on..oh wells. we fought a lot aye? all because of the word trust. hmms. we broke up and kinda went separate ways till now. i missed you. and i really hope you miss me too.
i would never forget tonight. how could i ever. thank you for stepping into my life. thank you.
ok now you have all heard mine story. tell me. how do i prove to her that i still love her and that i want her back?.
you know who you are aye. the one and only person reading this. ruth yeow xiang ling. trust me now?

alvina toh.