give me
more.

havent been blogging lately ah. been too lazy. hahha. baby came and pick me up from the airport! wait. i mentioned that already right? haha. anyway. she came and picked me up the next day and we went to whitebait&kale to return some shit. oooh. we met lala too. and unfortunately i had to go get my specs done. tsk.

thanks baby for free me from my jail cell(house). heh. we went to eat. then BUS RIDE!!!!!!!! woots. took 80 from hougang. then to habourfront then again! to chinatown then homeeeeee. hahha. long long long ride ah. there was this man. psycho. we were half kissing and i swear we were nicely snuggled together so nobody knew what we were really doing. and HE! had the cheek to tap baby s shoulder and say. "BEHAVE YOURSELVES". i mean like free world! why cant we do what we like to do. if it were a guy and girl couple would he have stopped them? singaporeans should open up more if they want to beat this country and that.

think bout this.
what if your gf suddenly told you that she wanted a man not a woman. what if she had a change of mind bout you. what if she just wanted to leave. what if she found someone else better?
what would you do. how would you feel.
just a random thought. dont read too much into it.

like sheila s nick.
this world aint bout me only. its bout everyone else.

alvina.
sometimes.
i dont know how to feel.

back.

oooh! i dont ever want to go to bangkok again. unless! im really desperate for clothes and want a truckload of t shirts. haha.

went there for five days. every single day there was just shopping eating and shopping. ah. how boring la. plus the fact that my baby aint with me made it a lot worse please. eeeks.

nurulia. haha yes! we need to do some major catching up ah! haha. (:

nor. SORRY! LOL. lazy ah. hahha.

baby. you silly wit. thank you for all the tags thank you for coming to the air port to pick me up thank you for all your calls and msges thank you for the aloe drink.
thank you for not straying. thank you for loving me.

i wanna grow old with you too. stay by me like how i will stay by you too.
oh baby. i missed you so.
missed you like fuck.
missed you so much i cried.
missed you that i cant believe im back.

the smile that appeared at that moment i saw you. was a smile lost for the past five days.
the smiles i smiled in all five days cannnot be compared to those i smiled in the hour i spent with you baby.

alvina.
stay true i will.

what if.

i just watched final destination 1 and 2 with her just now.
and yeah. this show just gets you thinking. dont you think.

i mean what if. you were just walking into a plane and the next thing you know it blows up. but wait! that s a dream. you scream kick up a fuss and just want people to believe. but no one does. you get off the plane with a few other people cause you started a fight and then! BOOM! the plane blows up. just like your dream. that s not the end. the people who survived now have to die because you decide to cheat death. so you see them. slowly. one by one. dying.
how would you feel?
how do you think it would feel to cheat death?

the show explains this theory that. if someone comes up and screws death s plan then it just moves to the next person in line. someone will die in your place every one day you live. somewhere along the lines i guess.

so!
be grateful to life.
you got one life. live it.
MOTTTOOO!

so what if im lesbian.
so what if im immature.
so what if im a spoilt brat.
so what if im this.
so what if im that.
SO WHAT!

omg. why the fuck am i so angry. fuck it la. im leaving for bangkok tmr. wheeeee!
SHOPPING!
i hope i would not die of heat.
i hope i would have enough oxygen.
i hope i would get a tan. ( DREAM ON.)

alvina.
peace out.
some things are REALLY better left unsaid.
i love you. that s why i want you to have the best.
and i know.
the best aint me.

try to
break me.

"i may have made some mistakes
but I'm only human, but I'm man enough to face them today"

thought that this line was kinda cool.

someone mention that i was immature in my relationship and yeah i have to admit. i have been. but hey! i may be lesbian but im also a first timer in this sort of lesbian relationship! so yeah. i have no idea why im explaining to that person but i just wanna let it out.

im sorry that im sensitive and just jealous of the person my girl thinks is hot.

alvina.
there were happier times i guess.
but hey!
we are strong enough to get thru this.
(:

a time
to blog.

oooh. to jar and nor. im too lazzzy to change the addresses! wait like one more day alright? AHAHA.

had uber fun yesterday. HA. stayed over at my class chalet. woot. not my first time staying out but definately my first at a chalet. oooh. and i miss riding my bike. i want! i want to go at fast speeds and just throw caution the wind and ride.

baby was yonked out! so slept with her thru the night. ha but i was feeling hot and cold so.. hmms. i just half the night was awake trying to sleeep. oh wells!

cab ed to baby s place. had a shower and just slept. whoooo! who knew sleep was that good!

came back home and just sleept again. argh. work tmr. boring la.

then! im flying to bangkok on sat. eeeks. i want my baby in my baggage please.

to eileen tan: i guess i have to say sorry to you. for the mean things i said. you really are strong huh. oh wells. good things will happen to good people and i bet you are a lucky one! so! keep smiling cause i realise. you always do. (:

to nurul. HA. collage! coming sooon! of us. LOL. ((:

alvina.
baby i want to spend my life.
with you. (:

i swear
(:

oh my god. my baby s the ultimate i tell you. sweetest. you rock!
i dint finish my apple crumble on my birthday at swensons and i really wanted to go back and eat it again. its so nice la! soooo i told baby bout that craving and she said ok! we d go asap when we dont have to work and all. pouts.
what i didnt know was...
baby didnt work today cause she had some cramps and all. and i had to work split so she offered to come pick me up from work. didnt want her to but i really wanted to see her badly laa. sooo. she insisted that i come out eleven sharp and that she only had an hour? so i was like what the hell are you doing la!
went out bout eleven and she was like put your bag down. sit down. and she took the plastic bag out and oooh! swensons apple crumble! she was so hyped up bout it. see how swweeet my darling is. HA.

i love you baby.
no matter what happens.
we d always be.
just you and me.
no stupid piece of glass or pieces of glasses will ever break us apart.

love.
a lot!

alvina.
jane, i wish i could marry you.

happy birthday
to me!

i wanna thank a whole load of people for making me smile, for giving me memories id never forget!

my dearest baby.
nurulia my girlie.
sheila my she cow goes mooo mooo.
charmy my lesbian gf.
yiwei my wei wei.

oooh.
thanks for the surprise guys.
id NEVER forget happy birthday! NEVER!
and for all the anti climax that i did. i SWEAR! it wasnt intentional! ha.

and baby i really like the drinnk! really. the BUT thing was just kidding. swear. HA. i love you.

was so bloated yesterday at swensons la. had erm. rice. with chicken and steak and fries. then! cherries and apple crumble and then!
the black forest ice cream cake! OMG. it was so nice but we couldnt finish cause we were all full. ):
went to take neos. and charmy was just WOAHHHH. haha. funnnny la.
shall upload sooon.

saw zilei rachel celostine. shall see them this sunday!
then steffieee and nat and niven cameeee.
gay boy. haha. i miss you. (:

went over to baby hse to stay over.
oooh.
tell me.
i dont think anyone could have a better birthday than me!

alvina.
this is to my baby.
baby thank you for spending my birthday with me.
i cant find the words to show how thankful i am to have you here with me.
i dont want you to leave.
and i promise i wouldnt ask you to leave anymore.
baby we feel so right for each other.
oooh.
i love you so much.
if only i can show you how much this love means to me.
if only i can tell you how much i love you.
baby.
i love you.

THANKYOU ALVINA TOH TOH TOH. PUMPKIN PUMPKIN PUMPKIN !
IF YOU WANT ANY CHANGES, YOU CAN COME TO JAR JAR JAR JAR THE SWEET POTATO !! HAHAHAH I WONT INVADE YOUR BLOG AGAIN LIKE HOW I AM NOW. COS I FORGOT YOUR USERNAME. ITS SOME VERY DIFFICULT WORD TO ME. HAHAHAHAHAH OKAY IM CRAPING !
OHH OHH SORRY FOR MAKING YOUR BLOG SO CRAZY COS THERES SO MANY ABOUT ME.

EG, DESIGN BY JARYNE, THE PUMPKIN FAMILY, AND MY NAME IN YOUR LINK.
HOPE YOU DONT MIND, COS YOU SAID I CAN DO WHATEVER I WANT TO IT.
ALRIGHT, SHALL SHUDDUP ! BYE PUMPKIN !

xLOVESLOVES.
-JAR ((:

for you.

thanks jaryne for doing it for me!
someone!
PLEASE!
teach me ! hahha.

baby i know i didnt exactly do it but its for you.
for a lil while only k?
i love you.
thanks for always making the effort to say i love you when you see my grumpy face.
thanks for always giving me the gentle touch when you walk past me.
thanks for always making the effort to smile at me when you are already so pissed.

baby thank you for loving me.

alvina.
i feel loved.

my thoughts.

i think i should be employed as a cleaner of cups than a waitress la.

and thanks to KENNNY Y!
hahha.
he s such a sweet guy la. (:

baby i love you and id never let you go.
sings.
stupid song.

train ride home i like.

alvina.
take me away.

im sorry.
im just too sensitive.

alvina.
i dont know me.

steamboat
with bbq
setting.
PLUS!
my one
month with
baby.

oooh! today was a nice today! baby came over with my dunks early in the morning! woots. pretty! HA. was really happy with them.

when to meet sheila! she was a bit pissed cause we kept changing and wasting money. cab ed down to work. i was so afraid of the bloody coffee machine but i love it now. i wish i could stand there all day and just make coffee la!

ok. went down to marina south with baby to meet my clique! woot!
and i want to thank all of them!
JOANNA MAN KELLY NEO THEA CHAN+SEAN CHARMAINE TAN+JOSHUA ELEANOR LOKE KANG ZILEI DIANA CHEONG JASMINE CHEW+CHARLIE.
and of course
JANE LEE JIE YING!
thank you for making this night so magical.
had bbq and steamboat. had like prawns the whole night and a little of this and a little of that!
went to the arcade after. whooo!
i won daytona! HA. played against nor kelly zilei jo baby.
I WON!
HA!
went over to hougang plaza for games of pool.
i did embarassing things la. omg. i dont want to mention it man. they laughed so hard at me!
got home bout 12 plus 1.

oooh and lastly!
HAPPY ONE MONTH BABY!
i hope you enjoyed today.
i hope you like the present i gave you.
many more months to come i hear you say!
and i agreeeeee!
cant wait for the 12th one though.
i love you baby.
call me whenever and i will come running
im ready and waiting forever for you.

hey baby.
i have a sexual fanatasy i hope you can fullfil. HAHAHAHAH!

alvina.
i found the love.

a lil problem
with trust.

alvina alvina alvina.
why are you so sensitive?
why cant you be more un-sensitive? haha. what a word.

im sorry if i hurt you in any way.
i just want you to be happy. that s all.
so when i assume that you re unhappy, id ask you to leave.
i rather see you happy with someone else
than you unhappy with me.

aiyeee.
i dont know.
alvina s just screwed, tired, mentally unstable... i dont know.
so yeah.

alvina.
im sorry.
really am.

what a
drag.

work s gonna start in a few hours. three actually. and im so not looking forward to it. i want to stay at home and sleep the rest of my day away man!

I NEEED SLEEEEPPPP.
why isnt there like 30 hours in a day?!

anyway. baby s sleeping. shall wake her up once im finished with this entryyyy.

to my one and only baby. (she complained that i only wrote a few sentences to her in the last entry.)
baby we have been together for almost a month and yeah it still does seem longer. dont you think? and you could still remember the first i love you that you said to me! baby i love you.
if only i can use words to describe how i really feel towards you. if only. but im sorry baby! i cant. no words can describe what i feel now. you all might think its bullshit but this is for real. alvina knows it too. pouts.
haha. i still wanna THANK my baby for loving me so much.

alvina.
my selcarim that i have been waiting for.