it makes
me wonder.

make me your one and only.
hold me tight and never let me go.
cause you mean the world to me.
if i cant have you whole.
i rather not have you at all.

when over to cha na na s hse today. they invited me over! for max s birthday! he turned five! haha. darn cute la! all the babies there! i miss my childhoood! oooh. and they actually remember me la! i thought i would stick out like a sore thumb. cause the only one i was close to is bridget. but they made me laugh so hard! first. they talked bout my pimples. then my hair then they continued bout me being fat. KAOS.
i wonder how i took everything mans! haha.

ok. came home after. just slept from like three to like erm seven plus? baby was complaining la! but she was out having fun so what the heck! LOL.

i miss my baby.
thank you baby for getting me my candy floss.
and my chocos.
and for tolerating all my tantrums.

id never forget the fall i made and you deciding whether your mama was more important or me. AHHHAHA.

i love you baby.

alvina

smoking?
a need?

im so bored! im in iiso lab now. everyone s like rushing for comm skills project. haha. my group gave up on me already. they dont like my work. hahha.
so WHATEVER.
there s this fat lard in front of me. aiyeee. i wish she would get away.
and then. there s this cute guy in front of me. omg. cant wait to go out with him. HAHAHA.

supposed to meet baby in town today. but jane mentioned bout me being too auntyish so! i dont feel like going to town. so i think im meeting her in toa payoh. aiyeee. life s getting boring!

and exams are so coming la. darn. i hope i dont fail and just screw up you know. oh wells.

i like yesterday. zilei sheila me stood on the design s school canteen chairs, pointed to nurul and shouted you suck! HAHHAHA. damn funnny la! definately cheered me up.

some shit happened the past day.
NIVEN SAYS HI.
to you.
i dont think i can fully love you again.
its hard for me to trust you again. really hard.
but i hope this works out.
i hope?

alvina.
we belong together?
i dont think so.

crossroads.

its times like this that makes you wonder. if everything s true. that everything s the way you wished it would be. i know you re true. you always say you are. but you know. the past still haunts me. a lot. and im afraid that you d find a better girl and just dump me aside.
i love you way too much already baby. way more than i ve ever crave for yearn for.
so please. dont play me and if you really wanna go. just tell me. dont pretend to still love me.

happy first month baby.
and the one year thingy!
(:

alvina
suddenly.
i feel darn lost.

oh wonderful day!


nurulia charmaine jane alvina!

nurulia charmaine alvina!

eleanor and me! look at how much she has changed! LOL.

we were bored. LOL.

after a hard day of work ah! haha

part of our project model that wasnt smashed! hahha.

nurulia sheila alvina. sheila s just lucky to have us/ haha.

nurulia alvina. i think we both look nice here!

alvina niven. GAY BOY!

hahhha. our "cardboard" hahha! jin niven sheila nurulia alvina!

united!

my iiso project group. i think my presentation rocked! haha. (:

yayy! today marked the end of almost all projects. now i only have like one left! heh! yayyy!
but then again. that only means that exams are coming so soon! eeeks.

i miss my baby.
my dert.

alvina.

police report

hah.

my parents were so fucking pissed with the baseless accusations made against me laa.

they lodged a police report. all the taggers' IP addresses have been traced and the police will soon be going after them!! HAHHAHHA. stupid people tag la! tag more! ahhaha. i got everything!

see who's getting the last laugh now. their IP addresses were traced already. tsk!

the idiots would be fined like $5000 each, and this is called SPAM through internet laa! LIKE, HAHHAHAHAHAHA! yayness! the police showed my parents their district this morning laa, and they called me and asked if i had friends staying like, there. and i was erms. NO!


alvina
i miss my baby.
(:

a scar that
will never go.

ooh. i had a hair cut. and now it seems! fringe? what fringe?! hahha. my fringe s screwed la. so is kelly s hair. maybe aunty that day had a fringe cutting spree! haha. oh wells! what s done done. just gotta live with it ah!

cmsy presentation s tmr. die ah! i dont know anything bout it la! oh my i hope i do fine!

been meeting baby almost everyday! (:
i just love her being around me! yayy! hahha.
yes i love my her.
no one better take her away from me!

alvina.

i want to
meet him.

i want to go to the liquid room desperately. i want to hear DJ KOFLOW play. omg. his remix es make me melt to the furthest extent. aiyeeee!

to hugger:
yes. even though i dont mention you in most of my blogs i still love you. (: and yes i do think of you la. ahhha.
id never forget lion king. and how an animal can look so much like you. HAHHA. ok she d kill me for this i think.
but then again. like she said. she d lose a hugger.
and i doubt she d bear to! i feel mean.
ahhha.
nevertheless. thanks hugger. for being here for me no matter.
(: soulmates.

alvina
words cant describe the feeling you give.

willy wonka!

oh my gosh. that show is bloody nice! i like that spoilt brat person. hahha. DADDY I WANT... hahha. everything bout that show was so perfect la! and to think we were all spaced out and not squeezed together! wooots! i gotta thank jane for this ah. hahha.

oooh. and baby thank you for accompanying me alrights? i love it when you smile and wrap your arms around me. haha.

and replying to the idiotic people.
hahha. its funny you think im a ching. omg, do i type like one? funny la! i cant speak write or whatever chinese la! and you say im a ching!?
and i think you people or person, didnt know the existance of ching till we mentioned it so kindly. stop being copy cats.
HAHAHHA.
erm singapore s a free place i think. so what s wrong with people speaking english? ha. its the international language btw! unlike chinese. eeks.
if i had a choice. i would rather take malay. (: its not that i dont like chinese. its just that i cant connect well!

alvina!
i'd rather.

for your information.

nirvana s not exactly singaporean. she s from another country? so i dont think she a ching. and hmms. if its not her business, why is it yours?
funnny la you people. dont know who s who. then come create trouble for god knows what reason.

anderson : who are you to decide who s proper and not proper? so are you trying to say that a guy who accidently killed somebody and is serving a jail term not proper because he murdered?

jasmine : you seem to know me really well huh. oh. and i dont think. i know! (: hahha. chings are people who cant speak proper english and obviously they try too hard. i think our definations of chings are different. ahha. oh and why should i be ashamed? im proud that i dont understand chinese! your point? and please! im not a ching. eeeks. i think you are. hahhha

thank you people for bringing back life to my tags. hahha.
dont you think its interesting to read and see what these idiotic people type? as if they know you so well la. and yeah.

to all. (people who tagged.)

SO?

oh!
ching calling who ching?! HAHHHHA.

alvina.
i love you. most.
baby i miss you.
yes. and i want a tour!

what a joke.

hahha. its happening again. people using my friends' name to leave taggs on my blog! it makes you wonder if its the same person right? ahhha. how stupid. but yes as i was saying. if that person thinks its gonna affect me, hmms. THINK AGAIN. hahha.

you are so cute la. i think its all the same person! hahha. imagine. how pitiful that person is. lets call it IT. it has to come all the way to my blog and create a pathetic conversation using my friends' name including mine! lame sia.
like i said. being a bitch aint easy know. haha. i think it s just jealous la. cant help it. im just darn much better than you!
ok. and please la . grow up get a life you brat. so what if im lesbain, so what if im a bisexual? HELLO. look at the people around you. wait. do you even have friends? and even if you do, i think they are so super narrow minded. look at society. its changing. nobody really cares anymore?! and im not the only want who's kissing girls in public. and even if i do, so what? haha. you are so making a mockery out of your tags la.

i have the standard to flirt to kiss to do whatever i want.
do you?

alvina.

dark hours.

"I'm not worried 'bout the ring you wear
Cuz as long as no one knows than nobody can care
You're feelin' guilty and I'm well aware
But you don't look ashamed and baby I'm not scared
I'm singin'
Follow me
everything is alright
I'll be the one to tuck you in at night
And if youWant to leave I can guarantee
You won't find nobody else like me"

to you. you know who you are. (:
hugger!
HHHAHHHHA. i like this song la!

aiyeee! school s getting. i dont know what to describe it with. just finished a major project report. ok. i admit. i so didnt do anything with it la! hahha. but all my other friends were bloody stress la! and i was enjoying myself doing nothing! hahha.

ok. my erm work plan for the month.
two weeks from now my cmsy presentation.
two weeks from now my iiso model and presentation due.
one more week and econs portfoilo s due.
every week i have comm skills assignments to do.

on top of that. i need to study for my exams, friends to cater to, family to spend time with and a gf s who sees me as non exsistant when she s with her friends.

think i can do it?

alvina.
what it takes.
id do everything.

a few days?
felt like a few months.

we were playing during econs! HAHHA. me niven on andrew!

me in a cap! sheila s cap.

the first guy i ever kiss! hahha. (: and do i really kiss like a duck?!

baby s sleeping already. she s sick la. and she injured her leg. and she still sent me home! yikes. i felt so bad! but yayy. i saw my baby two days in a row! im happy. hmms. wonder when s the next time i can see her though. -frowns.

met jo and her dearest today! fun time just crapping with her la! dang! i miss the past with her already. hahha.

been kinda half stressed la. iiso project was like due and i did it like two days before only?! presentation coming up! yikes. so screwed! and i just so found out exams are a month away! alvina s panicking sia!

ok. whatever la! fox having sale! go shopping please! or can somebody bring me shopping?! HAHHHA.

alvina.
we belong together.

past my hour.
deep into the night.

yawns! i so just finished my iiso project ah. and its written on paper.
darn. i didnt do my accounting homework ah! eeeks!
die ah.
so darn tired!
YAWNS!

hahhha! but am talking to jane online now!! yayy!! she s back! ((: am so glad. missed her to bits la! hahha. having lunch with her tmr! hahha.

gina wanted me to mention her in my blog. hahha she s my msging breakdown buddy person! hahha. our msges are like hello good morning and the next one will be ok bye bye goodnights! HAHHHA. but! at least today! made a little improvement! hahha. we d see tmr!

i read this story just now. oh my god. damn sad. made me realise certain things. and oh btw this is a true story yeah?
im too lazy to type. you guys can go over to http://boredintooblivion-.blogspot.com/. omg. damn sad la. plus the song and all. i so cried.
the first thing i did after reading was to call baby and tell her i love her. omg. can you imagine?!
sigh.

baby. i love you. (:
hugs. happy second week and one day! hahha.

alvina.

KISS AND MAKE OUT?!

i thought it was supposed to be kiss and make up! haha. yes oh wells whatever.

im not really in a happy or good mood so maybe after this i would feel better.
imagine your gf. she cant care bout msging you and she msges this girl like non stop. even when you are on the phone with her. and the usual came. "please la there s nothing going on. we are just friends. are you jealous?!" in a mocking tone she would ask.
FUCK YOU! DUH! im fucking jealous in fact. omg.
see thats why i dont wanna give you all of me.
i dont trust you.
at all.
alrights?

maybe we should just break up.

alvina.

sunny day.
a life saved?

thats rain. the cat we picked up. cared for and then gave back to nature.

saturday! when to school for the business it interest grp thingy! lol. had tons of fun la. and darn, i wasnt supposed to play but had to cause. i was a reserve!? and they made me. pouts! ha

eileen and tian tian! tian s my idea person! thought they werent playing they came to support us! how swweeet!

ha! my student leader! she s the best! ahhhha. she s like in yr 3 already? and she still bothered bout us! i love! (:

fazillah! haha. i like her too. she also contributes to my comm skill grp thingy! (:

andrew! big hell of a guy! hahha. damn cute! i like his presentation the most! "how to make a marriage last!" haha.

vincent! haha. you know my impression of you. (: i still like you. always helping me when jianlong s so mean! (:

an attempt to tie my hair! prettyy?!

serene ong! no idea why she has that carol face. ahhha. keep calling her that! nurul and me!

melissa! she s so pretty! SO SO PRETTY! and smart! haha. i like her too!

haha. no idea what i was trying to do la. hahha. but cute riggghht?! AHHHHAH.

alvina.
they say a picture speaks a thousand words.
i think my pics speak way more than that.

someone has left my life.
entered again.
and we made,
our promise of love.