in a state of high.

im sorry i lost your parker pen dear. a new one will come soon ok? and it d have a partner this time.

darling thanks for forgiving me.
i know you love me.
i know how much you love me!

baby waited for me outside psycho class today. i think its the first time in 7mths 20days she waited for me! haha. oh well thanks baby.

we re rich now! so! yayy. can go eat nice mum mum le! we love fooood!

wheeeeeeeeeeeee!

baby. i love you. more than words!

i wanna go fishing tmr. but if i go fishing... then ... hahha. so i wun join you ok?

baby bring me go whitebait and kale please!

baby ask me faster le so i need to end this.

she s starting to pout.

alvina.
i love you lee jie ying jane.
i dont know what id do if u were to lose you.

baby lost my parker pen.
was upset in the first place.
but i was surprised, i wasn't even angry with her at all.

i realised something baby, all these ups and downs are just putting us to a test.
some test that we have to get through to love each other even more.

i can lose a pen, and get another same one some day.
but i can't lose you, for you're irreplaceable baby.

this was the reason why i wasn't even angry with you for losing a birthday present my dad got for me. you're my one true love baby girl.

jane's enrolment key, only for alvina lee shu mei.
*2536*

from your baby medusa cum pouty princess,
jane

for my baby dearest.

baby, im so sorry for all that i've done to hurt you in anyway.
really hope you could accept my apologies.
this is dedicated to you baby.
who else can i dedicate too anyway right. lol.

Now and Forever

Whenever I'm weary from the battles that rage in my head
You make sense of madness when my sanity hangs by a thread
I lose my way but still you seem to understand
Now and forever I will be your man.

Sometimes I just hold you
Too caught up in me to see
I'm holding a fortune that heaven has given to me
I'll try to show you each and every way I can
Now and forever I will be your man

Now I can rest my worries and always be sure
That I won't be alone anymore
If I'd only known you were there all the time
All this time

Until the day the ocean doesn't touch the sand
Now and forever I will be your man
Now and forever I will be your man

yup baby, i'm really so happy that i've got you in my life.
to go through thick and thin together.
for the past 7 months and 19 days, i've love you with all my heart.
and i'd continue loving you now and forever..

we would and will belong to eachother the whole entire lifetime.
our promise.

i love you darling dear.
you're my greatest love too alvina lee.

thanks.

i heard this story once about a man who said, " i'll let my wife do what she loves, cause when she does that, it makes her the happiest woman in the world.. and that in turn makes me the happiest man in the world because i have the happiest woman in the world. "

i copied this off mitch. and i wouldnt have copied it IF! you didnt come and tell me the tables are reversed/turned. ok i know my memory is bad.

it made me realise how much jane s given up for me. what she likes she doesnt do much now cause i dont like it. and that doesnt make her a very happy person does that?
and if that doesnt make her a happy person then im not much a happy person too.
so see. now i know why it takes two hands to clap to be happy too. i always thought it takes two hands to start a quarrel. i feel stupid.

dear jane,
should i still call you my baby? are you still willing to stay by me? if you say no. id take it. at least you ve given me an answer.
im sorry for all the times i was jealous.
im sorry for all the times i was oversensitive.
im sorry for the stress i brought into your life.
im sorry for not believing in you.
im sorry for not trusting you.
im sorry for making you feel dirty and cheap or whatever.
im sorry for making starting all the quarrels that could have been avoided.
im sorry for not giving in to your needs.
im sorry for always been so self centred.
im sorry for not understanding your positions at times.
im sorry for shouting at you.

i dont know how to end this nicely but im just hoping you d forgive me. and forget the hostility and the harshness.
id be waiting for your reply.

alvina.

thank you s.
and now sorry s.
baby i mean what i say.
will you forgive me?

act like you have a girlfriend.

been fishing the past few days. wheee! and i admit. fishing is FUN. but i think the only fun times are when a big big fish is on the hook and you re pulling it up! HEE.

baby. i want jellyfish. pufferfish. sea urchin. whale. and a lot of prawns please. oh! hermit crabs too! ((:









no fish. so when i caught a fish it was pregnent so. i was bored. and baby was bored. so i asked her to squeeze the eggs out. ahah. pretty?









what we caught at changi beach club. mantis prawns!








baby stingray!







baby and her mantis prawn.








what we caught at pulau ubin today. which btw stands for PU. haha. there are other fishes too but they were either tortured. are thrown back into the water. ((:

alvina.
do you think we can get through this?
and anon. maybe you re right. im doing what you say im.

oh babyyy!
where are you?!

something happened to baby and i last night at changi beach club. well. at least we talked out how we felt bout each other.
we revealed our emotions.
and im happy to say.
we re fine.

i love you baby.
i know we can overcome everything together.

alvina.
anyone in psycho class?! t04?!

tiger airways.
ducky.
quacky.
wormy.
disappointment.
food habits.

alvina.
enough is enough.

shit

i think my manager s reading my blog. cause! she s stopping ONLY jane and i from working. darn. but anyway. i dont care. cause imma go talk to her tmr and see what the hell is wrong!

im waiting for my food now. just ordered from macs. aiyeee. i wonder why im eating SO darn much these days. and the worse thing is that im not working out. so im gaining a blooody hell lot of weight!

i love nail polishes!
ok bloody random but can anyone get me the entire collection of OPI?!
their nail colours are so nice!

when is my food comingg...

baby s on her way home..

and im talking to someone who sees me as a lousy companion! sigh. how sad.

im fat.
im fat.
im fat.

sigh.

school s starting. i hope i feel stressed. then! lose weight. plus appeitie. then lose hair. sleep more. grow thinner! yayy!

ahaha. alvina s crazy cause she s hungry.

alvina
baby wo love ni.

the more significant the person is to me, the more bullshit abuse lies i have to put up with.

taken from alicia.
(:

alvina.

WOW.

wow! what a week! i sold my phone. got a new phone. went MS and ate only prawns. had my clique thingy. said bye bye to 3 hams. and im going MS tmr again! oh! and i screwed macs!

sold E680.
got K750i.

went MS with lala charm leng ven jane !
darn. baby was peeling prawns for me cause she didnt want to spoil my nails. how sweet. went over to changi beach after. and met val. alvin s gf. nice girl. LOL.

had my clique thingy yesterday. with nor diana thea jasmine charlie kelly sean jane ! went pepper lunch. walked around. and 8 people squeezed into a car. went to gardens. and ice cube was closed. ))):
i want to eat there. so instead went to liquid kitchen and just chilled. charlie was nice enough to send baby and i homee!
thank you charlieeeee. "NIGEL" lol

ooh im heading to MS tmr again. but this time with alvin and val. and some other people i think. ahh. prawns.. im comingg.

mac s got from as bad today. and my fucking manager. actually scolded us. like fuck you Jane Poh. so what if you got the same name as my baby. so what if you know you are attractive. fuck you.
as customers. that was how you spoke to us. no worry. id remember you. when you fire or rather id quit. you re gonna get a letter from MOM regarding your attitude. take jane and i off from the roster. you d see.

on a happier note! my phone can take bloody nice pictures!







my baby.







look at how neat my cardboard is. lol






alvina.

thanks baby for pointing out all the mistakes! WHEN?! lol. and the food. and the photo. and the fuck you. haha.
xie xie!

good bad.

something happened to baby s acc and you. i have no idea why you think its me and only me. but if you wanna think so and say so after i said sorry to you then i have nothing else to say.
im sorry stephie. for sending those stuff to you. would you forgive me?

Happy 7th month dear baby jane.
things would be better i promise.
oh did i mention.
baby looks like an chocolate now. haha.
i like i like.
((:

had buffet with my clique! not exactly cause only jasmine/charlie nor kelly came! but nevertheless. we had FUN! and i actually saw my sec sch teacher. -.-
and my friends were actually counting how many times i said jane, baby, she, her. haha spastic!

baby see how much i missss you?
im so glad that you are back already.

alvina.
babyjane. i hope you really are happy with me
cause im so so thankful im with you.
i love eating with you baby!

i miss you so much jane.

one day has passed.
another 2 more days.
baby come home la!
stop being a fisher-women ok? come home and be my darling wife ok? please....

its so quiet here without you.
something is missing. and thats you.
i never want to lose you baby. Never i dont want my life to be like these few days.
like you can read this baby. but when you do! you d be home! ((:

i just saw. a dog like lancy fish! tht dog actually fished baby! if lancy was that brave! ahaha.

heading to sentosa later.
with amyyy and nurul!
mr sun please fight the rainy clouds and shine!


baby i wish you were here.
to enjoy what im doing or rather i wish i was there to enjoy what you are doing.