sentosaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaanddddd!

haha.
that s one thing id remember!
SAND.
and
WATER!!!
plus
SEAWEEEEEEEEED!

started out rough.
things were fine after. yayy. chicken rice! my craving was finally satisfied. i think. i must go far east one of these days! hmms! bus. to palawan. then i decided to walk. went over to siloso. ooh. it was so crowded with people today. i buried my baby. hahha.
went into the water. brrr. cold. plus there was so MUCH seaweeeeeddd! eeeeeew! i hate them la! omg. eeeee! was grabbing onto baby the whole time. that s if i thought i found seaweeed la.
eeew.
and baby. haha. she was so scared to go into water! lol. the deepeer i when. the tigher she grabbed onto me. haha. it was so funny seeing her squirm.
played with this bunch of kids. china people i think. bloody rough play sia. omg. i still dont like them. but! i had fun!!
baby made me this i love my baby thing. so swweeet. tried for like the longest time to protect it from the tide. but baby spoiled it after we took a photo of it. she couldnt stop flinging me into the water and all la. stupid.
the musical fountain was so nice! packed. but nice. and with baby there. it was perfect! wheee. it was the nicest sentosa trip ever.
baby. still remember how i was going to propose?
baby. going out with you is educational. i learned today bout undercurrents.
and oooh. that grandpaa and grandmaaa. they were so sweeet. ((:

pictures on the next blogg.

baby.
im so sorry bout the ring.
and thanks for cheering me up.
with or without the ring im still yours. you are still mine.
oooh.
i love you so much my dear wife.

baby.

im worried bout you worrying that your parents worry too much.

so chin up my dear one.

i d forever be here.

alvina.
jane jane jane.
what have you done to me,
to make me so scary over you.

merrry merrrry christmas!

oooh. to think the new year is coming too!
and a happy new year!!
((:

wanna thank baby for giving me the present!
sorry baby.
i didnt give you anything but troubleee. ):
i love you.

thank you for still loving me.

baby. no more fights or quarrels.
no more of those bad days.
ok?
no more pissimos.
all happy days.

please dont ever ask me to leave.
i cant bear too.
and it hurts too much.

jo. im sorry for blowing you off at the last minute cause of my love.
please accept my sorry ok?

alvina.
the best thing on earth.
is to meet your one true love.
and that s you.
jane lee jie ying.
my one and only lovely princess wife; the perfect queen of my heart.

everything my fault.
and i thought it took two hands to clap.

im sorry.

alvina.

smokers unite?

at lala hse now.
i want to drink.
like how she smokes.
i want to reach my high.
like how she easily can.
i want to swim
like how she laughs.
i want to dance
like how she flirts.

alvina.

rough PATCH?

last night and today started out really wrongly. esp in the morning.
i thought everything was gonna be over. i thought you really didnt want me anymore. i thought you wanted to let me go.

baby. thank you for choosing to stay by me again.
if you think you leaving me would help make things better. you re wrong. it would make things worse.
and you are the right one for me. my most perfect most serious gf. you really think the hurt would only be temporary?!

still. thank you baby for giving us this chance again.
i love you so muchh.
dont ever let your love fade for me.
dont ever think of leaving me again.
please.

we sorted things out and everything was back to normal! yayy.
was so hungry so left my hse. couldnt decide where to eat so bought otah. and mac and took a bus . wanting to head to toa payoh. on the way. decided to head to bishan to try some levis jeans. i think i should just stick to skirts. LOL.
ooh! and then. i wanted ham hams. so. together. with an umbrella. we went in search of ham hams! couldnt find the shop in bishan. so baby said lets head to thomson. the pet shops there were. WHOA. the dogs were so cute! i want i want i want!
got my hams from this shop. buy a cage and get two hams free. how cool. so got them and got everything set up in the shop and carried my hams home!

baby. thanks for buying them for me. thanks for sending me homeeee!
ducky and wormy.
you will always have jane s and mine love.
((:

our first 2 baby juniors.

alvina.
i love you my sweetheart.

chou chou.
thank god i have you.

your owner doesnt care. doesnt want us at anymore. sigh.
she dont want me anymore.
dont care.
dont bother bout me anymore.
sigh.

chou chou.
thank you.

alvina.

i want to be a wedding planner!

i had two cravings satisfy today.
thank you baby.
love
love.

lets get thai express to sponsor their tom yum ok?

alvina.

passed out
all over.

i cant believe i passed out. LOL.
and baby was MIA. pouts.
but nevermind you are forgiven.

oooh today was a nice day. pout.
i like shopping and eating with you.
i like throwing decisions at you.
then you give me one or two.
the sticky sticky sweet.
the hot hot hot tea that i love.
the lighter that i spoiled.
the tampon! HAHAHHAHA.
bout our 40 baby juniors. HAHHA.
thinking bout it makes me laugh la. the bus. the hide and seek. the maid. the ONLY girls.
baby i cant wait to to live in a hse with you.

baby just asked me to look at my phone s galleryy.
and she apparently took pictures of me sleeping! hahha.
how cute la.
thanks baby.
melted.

econs tmr.
wish me luck.
i hope this aint gonna screw up!

and nurul!
yes. coffee soon please.
i want. coffee bean. LOL.

alvina.
baby. i dont know what will happen if i ever lose you.

i fear.
so much of losing you.

you are my everything.
my everything that i could ever desire.
don't.
please don't let me lose you.

baby, i'm sorry i always have to many things on. i'm sorry to neglect you all the time, i didn't meant to do that. but it always happens. don't ask me why i chose you as my gf cause i know what i want, and what i want is you. you may think that you ain't the best but baby, you are to me. that's what matters the most.

15 weeks passed by, many many many more to go.. don't give me up now. we'll get through everything together. i'll never leave you here alone to face any problems, just call my name.. and i'll be there. hmm but baby, you know under certain unexpected circumstances, i may be unavailable sometimes like today. don't fret; don't pout cause you know sooner or later i'll be right there beside you.

baby i'm really sorry for everything that happened, all the unhappy moments and all the time i made you angry. i had no intention of causing pain and hurt.. but then again, it just happens.

baby, i wanna bring you to nice nice places to eat, i wanna feed you till you grow and become as chubby as chou chou! haha, i wanna buy corn and candy floss for you everyday! and your mambo coat! soon okay baby.. just be patient.

my dear wife
i love you.
stay,
and grow old with me.

jane.
your wormy pantat baby girl.

i feel so disappointed with myself.
cant seem to do anything right at all.
sigh.

im happy for you.
i know you dont need me to be
but at least you finally got what you wanted again.

(:

alvina.
to be at peace with myself.
then with the world.


happy 15 baby.

i dont really see a point in anything anymore.

i cant even fulfil my role as your gf.
if you think you are useless, then im fucking worse.
all i do is throw tantrums and get angry.

i just wanna be with you.
why is it so hard?

alvina.
this love.
is killing you and me.

santa slut and
horny reindeers!

term test coming already.
-chants.
study study study study.

i want life back laaa!
went over to baby s hse to stayed over to study. but was too tired i guess. was falling asleep most of the time. but anyway! so was she. haha. was funny la. the way i was trying to wake her up and all. TSK. ahh. in the end. i gave up. so we both slept till the next morning! the morning was even funnier. haha. both of us didnt wake up till her mom told us it was 12 and we had to be in sch by one. LOL.

my lil baby. with your silly pout and innocent look when you sleep.
oooh. it just melts my heart straight away.
plus that smell that you have.
ah. its just perfect with you sleeping next to me.

i screwed up a little today. soorry baby. for the notes. i hope everything s like ok now. ((:

and im not fond of her ah.

baby. thanks for patting me to sleep. thanks for the soft touches and kisses. thank you for the tight hugs when im scared.

i love you baby.
thank youu.

alvina.

you gave me a heartbreak again.

alvina.

the aftermath.

baby. you sweet lil thing. of course you are sexy for me. you are too sexy for me actually. heh heh.

thanks for doing something i wanted to do for so long already. dont make me delete it please please please!

baby thanks for acc-ing me to the polyclinic today. ok partly because you needed a MC too. but. i know i was being a kuku la. asking you to be there and in the end shooing you off cause i was shy. LOL. still thanks baby! and oh! thanks for pressing it and lending me your shoulder to rest on. ((:

you are the one for me.

thanks for leaving me alone with you know who huh.
pouts.
idiot.
im still a lil angry. humph humph.
you think?!


i love you baby.
a lot a lot a lot.

where are my seagulls?!

oh. happy died. ): after so many days. he/she died. )): oh wells. there s still sucker. haha. baby i dont blame you ok.

baby! you finally agreed to rear hams hams! yayy! i want i want.

alvina.
baby is this ok?
baby no more fights. no more quarrels. just us. forever.
right?

my baby girl,
god's bestest creation.

everything's gonna be smooth-sailing from now onwards. today's the 99th day ever since we got together. sorry baby, i can't finish the 99 seagulls but i promise to give you the 125 seagulls okay? let them be hanging on top of you everynight so that they could take our love flying soooooooo high. (make sense?) oh yeah! and remove those stars hanging right above you everynight ar.

baby, thank you for coming to see 'beautiful sunday' at esplanade like 2 days ago. though you didn't manage to see me on stage, im sure.. someday when i get to play the solo standing up. YOU WILL SEE ME. I hope it was an enjoyable one for you. i hope i look sexy enough that day huh. =)

baby, thank you for your piano version of 'more than words'. I was so fucking touched, really melted straight away. baby, i'll play it on the trumpet for you okay? just bring me the scores man! haha, baby i love youuuuu.

you made my life so wonderful.
hold me close,
don't ever let me go.
i love you my dear wife.


your pantat baby girl,
jane.

so what if you are pissed.
does it give you the right to scream at me like that.

what the fuck do you fucking take me as?!
did i do anything wrong?!

go find someone that can calm you down ok.
im sorry im so fucking useless.

i really hate you now.

alvina.
i really tried.

swirls of smoke.

xuan.
please.
by thursday.
please have loads of brain juices churning.

ooh. heading for my bloodtest this friday.
i think.
im gonna faint.
om TIANNN.

baby.
please please please.
can you be there for me?

alvina.
just for you.

everything s gonna be alright.

((:

alvina.
im gonna make this work.
no matter what.
i love you.

the end is near.

dont say things.
and not mean them at all.
what s the point of saying it all.
"i dont wanna play my game." and the next "i really wanna play my game."

i dont know.
how do you interpret that?

what to do.
im fucking unreasonable.
im fucking spoilt.
how?
i dont see a point in changing me.
i know these are bad traits. but ok. i think i should change.
opps.
im being like what i mentioned above aye.
ok. i would change. (:
someone told me.
if that person loves you for you. she would ask you to change.
how many times have you asked me to change?

i realise how this blog has been all US US US.
and this is supposed to be ME ME ME.
why have a love blog when everything s turning into hate?

i went to the doctor s today. im heading towards mild depression. i may have a illness that may make my eyes POP. haha. how funny la. had to take a blood test. eeeeew. i dont want pain. and i wonder what im doing to myself. i thought my reaction was funny when the doc was taking out a piece of paper which i thought was a needle. haha

nurul. thanks for making me laugh. though you are a lil spastic. you know i still love you. right?! hahha.

my plans for the coming days.
friday - hougang plaza dessert
saturday - swim tuition
sunday - esplanade?
monday - piano lesson
thursday - tuition
friday - tuition

and that all of my plans!
oh my xuan. i pray that you get more intelligence when you come back from genting. please please please!

i need a bus stats tuition teacher fast. anyone?

should i head to genting?

alvina.
id get the courage.
one day. i know i can make it.
one day.

going going GONEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

i wanna wear nice clothes too.

how i love screaming.

where s cycle one!?

alvina.

no sorries.
no thank yous.

what a day. all the shoutings and cursings and swearings. how vulgar.
also, all the blood shed. and the pukes.

baby. i just hope these sort of things wouldn't happen again. at least in the near future.
i love those days where we would both throw our tantrums, and one of us will end up giving in to the other.. i missed those times. i want it back right now.

will we be okay? i don't know.
this is the last time i'm asking you. will we be okay? yes.

baby why the second time then tell me yes? are you afraid that when you say no.. i wouldn't want you anymore? don't fear.. cause i'll try not to break any more promises.
baby, sometimes.. fear is something that you have to try to overcome. in times when i'm not around, you'll have to take care of yourself. i'm serious.

find your own character.
your very own.
and just hope and pray that yours.
will eventually meet mine,
and we'd be happily ever after.

jane.

damn mtv.
happy 3rd babyy.

oooh. happy 3rd baby.
today wasnt a really nice day huh.
i think we should just be alone in our own world.
hmms.
i still want to thank you for being here for me all the time baby.
i really dont know how to stop loving you.
and if you ever want me to leave,
im sorry. i dont think i can do it.
thanks again for giving me this chance.
and i really do hope you are feeling better already.
(:

i still do feel you are loving me lesser and lesser each day.
oh wells. ):

alvina.
blessed to the max?

and nor. id think bout what you said!

thank
you.

baby tonight has been so special.
i saw love and happiness in your eyes.
i saw our future once more.
and now its as clear as ever.

the past week.
whenever i looked into your eyes our future.
our future was blurred.
but today!
it was as clear as ever.

oooh baby.
you are the one for me.

thanks for taking care of the stupid stomach.
thanks for sending me home.
thanks for everything you are willing to do for me.

to nurul : cheer up ok? nothing s wrong la! ((:

alvina.

with you around.

who cares bout anything else.

now i
see.

these few days.
made me realise how much i love jane.
i know what i did.
and it just made me happier with jane.
made me realise how much better she is.

i cant see how id continue life without you baby.
id never let myself lose you like that ever again baby.
NEVER.
if i ever do, i doubt i can ever forgive myself.

baby.
this is from my heart.

when i look into your eyes,

i see love that i thought id never find.

be with me forever.

dont ever go.

oh baby.

love is definately in the air around us.

alvina.
dont ever lost touch of our love.

AIDS IS SPREADING.
AND ITS NOT A GAY ILLNESS!