ideas for the screwed.

Monday, May 29, 2006

deeep.

I, I dont know why i miss you so much
Yeah I, I dont know why I still feel your touch
You, you left me feeling high and dry
With nothing, nothing but the question why
Yeah you, I guess you had another direction
And leaving me with nothing but a dead connection
If you call me today
Ill say that Im fine
But I bet you can tell by the tone of my voice
Its just a lie
You knew what you had
You still walked away leaving me in this mess
My love for you is deep and meaningless
You, you knew what you were doing to me
And I, I guess I was too blind to see
Well you hit where it hurt and you fooled me so bad
But I'd do it again to relive what we had(Damn thats sad)
There are many things left to remind me
Of a love that I just cant leave behind me

alvina.

Friday, May 26, 2006

i cant get over this!

Librans are emotionally impulsive and just love being in love. In fact they can get quite depressed if they feel unwanted. They're also known as 'Lazy Libran' because they don't like to make decisions. They're just happy to go with the flow. They're fantastically beautiful. People will do anything for them. They're affectionate and sympathetic and intensely interested in people. They love entertaining and lots of good food, which means they're forever dieting. They're also the world's biggest spenders.
They project an image that is attractive, chosen to represent their sense of status and refinement. Being inclined to experiment sexually, they are not the most faithful of partners and even goody-goody Librans are terrible flirts.

hhahha. i cant get over this! which is so true! dont you think so?
anyway im at a lab now. waiting for b. as usual.
b. i love the word/letter/name. its so short. haha.

been damn busy la. work study work study work study. and i have 3 projects on hand and more coming. OMG. total i think i have erm 7 projects? i just finished one and credits to SHIDA! WOOTS. she s a battery that wouldnt go out of energy!

oh! and new phoneee! i cant get over it. i cant believe i got a neew phoneeeeee! wheeee.
its so pretty. so bloody prettyyy.

go listen this song man.
FEEL IT. black eye peas.

alvina.
i love you. yes?


Tuesday, May 23, 2006

jane : where have i gone to?
alvina : dont go baby.
jane : who blew me away?
alvina : baby you re not a kite.
jane : im a paper kite.
alvina : no you re not any kind of kite you re my baby.
jane : im still a kite.
alvina : ok then. im the string thats holding on to you.
jane : then who s holding us?
alvina : we are flying by ourselves.
jane : ok then.

thus the story of pretty kite and sexy strings starts.
haha.

baby id try my best to change my bloody attitude. just stay by me ok?
i love you.

alvina.
oh great! i got my 6111. my white true come trueee.
baby you re my miracle/selcarim come true!

Thursday, May 18, 2006

im such a sucker for phones!

i want 6111. in white! can any kind soul buy for me?!
or maybe 6280.
or or
alamak.

alvina should learn to be contented! haha.
so id be a good girl and sit on my phone till nov then i change phone again! HAHA.

i hope id stick to that.

work work work.
yawns.
i love working!
means more money! ((:

alvina.
baby i love you!
happy happy!

Monday, May 15, 2006

drink courage up.

i should head to church more often. no. or rather i should start going to church again.
the place to calm all my thoughts.
to calm my bloody hot temper down.
yes.

drink courage up.
to face all that s coming.

alvina will stay strong for herself.

i hate the name jess.
but baby you love it right?

i hope you d be truthful to me.
i hope you remember what i asked of you.

and since you insist on talking to her.
i dont see why i cant talk to any of my friends.

alvina.

Sunday, May 14, 2006

i want a car.
.
i want a car. a white car. like the one i saw while sitting outside of macs. while waiting for my baby to end band.

this week has beeen pretty slacky!
and im happy that im finally back at the call centre working. AGAIN for mac delivery.
happy to see all the familiar faces.
happy to hear jo rant bout this particular danny.
happy that im soaked in attention again.
happy that im earning money from macs again.

what im unhappy bout.
stupid rude customers.
not being able to eat at white bait and kale with baby cause of our busy schedules. (damn!)
having a proposal to draft when its only the 3 week of school.
my diet that ceased to exist.
my cravings for twister fries and lots of misc food.

damn. this is what happens after reading a book.
so baby. want me to blog more? get me more books to read! haha.

baby
remember that night we sat on the dirty bench?
drinking my fave and your hated drink?
with you smoking a cig?
with me in your arms?
remember how i teased you with a kiss?
remember mr snail?
remember how we spoke of our love?

alvina.
cause i did.

Thursday, May 11, 2006

happy birthday baby.

oooh had a fun time yesterday at baby s chalet. bbq was ok. food was sufficient i think. had drinks but the mixers were not here! so baby alvin tejay and i drove out to changi village to get the drinks. we got them but alvin and tejay went to draw money so. baby and i went back to the car. and tried opening it. we couldnt so I ME! had to open it with the key and the blooody alarm went off! OM GOD! bloody loud la. and then alvin and tejay came back to help. stupid car. and censor. just couldnt stop ringing! in the end pressed the red button. and susprisingly. i thought baby would be angry and would scold me but she didnt! ((:
i love you baby girl.
happy birthday!

her cake cutting came. and omg. i never felt dirtier. i thought i was safe. sitting at one corner. then! either i attacked leng or she attacked me. and it started! OMG. chased her all over. but whipped cream finished! damn. so. used left over drinks! then she take cake. a little and pushed my head to the wall! damn painful la. but nvm. alvin and baby was playing with butter. and god knows how many eggs hit her la. and how much butter. and whipped cream. and chilli and i dont know what. but alvin poured beer all over me la!
KAO! not only that plus chilli sauce! gross sia! but anyway. i smeared butter on him. chilli too and ice tea! wheee!
baby thanks for sharing whatever you had on your body with me. ((:

i want a birthday chalet like that too!

sheila and tejay was drunk i think.

baby was high so took care of her and slept till the next morning!

ooh baby your hair still got chilli and butter smell! aiiyeee!

my present got attacked by eggs... )):

baby lost her ring. so i threw mine away tooo!

alright! enough. woke up at seven. stoned. chatting with leng adeline pauline and yayy got hotcakes for breakie! where s amy!? lol.

10 30 out and homee to sleep. baby s home la.

i want a birthday like that too la. pouts. and i want to go whitebait and kale to eat too. then i want to go shopping and et levi s jeans. then i want to lose weight.

and weee! im joining wake boardin! yayy! ((:

alvina.
happy birthday baby.
i love the way i can hold you so close to me.
i love the way you wake up to hold me closer.
i love the way you purposely wake to kiss me.
i love the way you let me hold you.
i love the way you not wake up when i move.

baby like you said.
the difference btw 36 ans 25 is 11.
and both our bdaes are on the 11.
we are made for each othe baby.

i love you.
happy 18 th dear.

Sunday, May 07, 2006

SHMIMY baby monster.

haha i miss you sooo much.
thank you for accompanying me all the way to jurong for band this afternoon.
thank you baby, for staying with me all these while for all my crankiness.
thank you baby, for all that you've done for my birthday celebration.
thank you dear, for always being my baby monster that is forever to adorable.

you're just so unique.
nobody could ever replace you. nobody.

i love you alvina lee.

with greatest love, jane.

Wednesday, May 03, 2006

SHMILY baby jane.

i know its a little long dear. but bear with it ok?

My grandparents were married for over half a century, and played their own special game from the time they had met each other. The goal of their game was to write the word "shmily" in a surprise place for the other to find. They took turns leaving "shmily" around the house, and as soon as one of them discovered it, it was their turn to hide it once more.
They dragged "shmily" with their fingers through the sugar and flour containers to await whoever was preparing the next meal. They smeared it in the dew on the windows overlooking the patio where my grandma always fed us warm, homemade pudding with blue food coloring. "Shmily"was written in the steam left on the mirror after a hot shower, where it would reappear bath after bath. At one point, my grandmother even unrolled an entire roll of toilet paper to leave "shmily" on the very last sheet. There was no end to the places "shmily" would pop up. Little notes with "shmily" scribbled hurriedly were found on dashboards and car seats, or taped to steering wheels. The notes were stuffed inside shoes and left under pillows. "Shmily" was written in the dust upon the mantel and traced in the ashes of the fireplace. This mysterious word was as much a part of my grandparents' house as the furniture.
It took me a long time before I was able to fully appreciate my grandparents' game. Skepticism has kept me from believing in true love-one that is pure and enduring. However, I never doubted my grandparents' relationship. They had love down pat. It was more than their flirtatious little games; it was a way of life. Their relationship was based on a devotion and passionate affection which not everyone is lucky experience.
Grandma and Grandpa held hands every chance they could. They stole kisses as they bumped into each other in their tiny kitchen. They finished each other's sentences and shared the daily crossword puzzle and word jumble. My grandma whispered to me about how cute my grandpa was, how handsome and old he had grown to be. She claimed that she really knew "how to pick 'em."Before every meal they bowed their heads and gave thanks, marveling at their blessings: a wonderful family, good fortune, and each other.
But there was a dark cloud in my grandparents' life: my grandmother had breast cancer. The disease had first appeared ten years earlier. As always, Grandpa was with her every step of the way. He comforted her in their yellow room, painted that way so that she could always be surrounded by sunshine, even when she was too sick to go outside.
Now the cancer was again attacking her body. With the help of a cane and my grandfather's steady hand, they went to church every morning. But my grandmother grew steadily weaker until, finally, she could not leave the house anymore. For a while, Grandpa would go to church alone, praying to God to watch over his wife. Then one day, what we all dreaded finally happened.Grandma was gone.
"Shmily." It was scrawled in yellow on the pink ribbons of my grandmother's funeral bouquet. As the crowd thinned and the last mourners turned to leave, my aunts, uncles, cousins and other family members came forward and gathered around Grandma one last time. Grandpa stepped up to my grandmother's casket and, taking a shaky breath, he began to sing to her. Through his tears and grief, the song came, a deep and throaty lullaby.Shaking with my own sorrow, I will never forget that moment. For I knew that, although I couldn't begin to fathom the depth of their love, I had been privileged to witness its unmatched beauty.
S-h-m-i-l-y: See How Much I Love You.
Laura Jeanne Allen


baby i love you. dont mention a time out or a break up anymore ok? i believe we can get through our bad tempers right?








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i like!

went monkey bar / gold rush / party world with jane and leng. met cinead kimme and the boys at party world!
oooh i love gays!

keep rockin guys

alvina
jane lee jane lee.
you are so deep in my heart.