mahjong blues?

i like mahjong and today i played with adeline alvin and yuyuan with baby s help. sorry baby for hesitating at first cause i was shy! and afraid that they would laugh at me. )): but mahjong is fun! now i know why you enjoy it now. hee. now i just need to get better!

thank you for always wanting to try even through you re sick to the bone with me dear. thank you so much.

i have 4 ulcers in my mouth. help? but then again with baby s concern. im happy already.

kelly thanks for being here.

alvina.
new feelings im starting to have.
i hope we win! damnit.

blank blank blank!

baby i think im going thru what you have been going thru. argh the headaches cannot stop comingg! HELPPPPPPPP!

but anyway. these few days. been shopping and eating and shopping and eating. woots! baby got a shirt. i got one and a half shirt.

now what a lack is bags! yes we need to go bag hunting one of these days.

oooh baby no worries ok. no matter how busy you re gonna be id be your good girl and support you. just dont get too close to your boys. dont like other people thinking that you are their girlfriend. -.-

good started and i never felt better. im not going to skip classes! i dont want to anyway. unless. neccessary. haha. what an excuse.

baby s watching soccer now.
i miss you.

alvina
things really do change.

changes.

alvina.

today is a happy day! - sings!

wheee!
baby got her levis shoes.
alvina got her nice nice slippers that she wanted very long!
had mango rice coconut thingyy.
bought soduku game!
got auntie s anne!

today is money spending day!
but i feel rich!
so who cares! ((:

baby you re gonna be busy.
i wonder what s gonna happen soon.
POUTS.
but id still be here for you. (:

alvina
i love you.

new goal!

i got a new goal in life! learnt it from someone. or took it from somewhere. cant remember. hmm.
oh i think its the nine o clock chinese show.

i only got one life. so why not just live it happily?! haha. why make everyone around me so unhappy and so irritated with my attitude. esp when im always making my baby so pissed up.
and anyway being happy even though things dont go your way is a plus cause eventually things would! had a perfect example tonight!

alvina.
can i really be happy this way?

maybe its really the end.

dear God,
please give me the strength to go through all odds.

alvina.
remember,

if your heart s not in it, for real.
please dont try to fake what you dont feel.
if your love s already gone, its not fair to lead me on.
cause i would give the whole world for you,
anything you ask of me id do.
but i wun ask you to stay, i rather walk away
if your heart s not in it.

am i still your greatest love jane?
or is everything just a lie?

gone.

all gone.

and alvina s gone too.